I know way too many people here right now that I didn’t know last year, who the fuck are y’all? I swear it feels like the last few nights, but I just can’t remember it all.
This set of lyrics has constantly been echoing throughout our entire trip at Nationals both literally (thanks to Gurm) and figuratively. It was only over a month ago that I was feeling dejected from getting cut, and then lucky for receiving two extra opportunities to prove myself to everyone around me. I just can’t believe this past month (and especially these past four days) happened.
Sick jerseys, yea? So choked I didn’t trade my extra white for another team’s :(
So in response to welikelove, Nationals was a freaken roller coaster. In terms of our games, we slaughtered one of Quebec’s weaker teams (TQ) and lost to BC All Star West (West Coast Reign) on the first day and moved up from 9th seed to 7th. On day two, we beat Calgary (Cujo) pretty easily, lost a tight game against Ottawa (Resurrection), and then lost yet another close game against Winnipeg (MOFO). We came in that day at 7th and left in the same position. As for the day that mattered most, things did not go as hoped. We played against Toronto (Overdrive) expecting to be able to win, but to our dismay we lost. Since Mischief (Vancouver’s supposed C team) beat Resurrection, we had to play them again. Our goal had been to place top 5, but we lost that game as well and ended up fighting for 7th place against another Quebec team called Voodoo. Long story short, we placed 8th out of 15 teams. Not bad I suppose, but definitely not ideal. Reign placed 1st obviously, Overdrive placed 2nd, Vortex (BC All Star East) placed 3rd and Mischief got 4th. In all honesty… if our season had gone just a little bit more differently, Misfit would have been right up there and it would have been so fucking sweet to have all BC teams in top 4. Woulda, shoulda, coulda.
Sitting at the airport in Montreal, I really felt like we all had just paid ~$800+ to play in some regular tournament because the overall atmosphere produced from how we did didn’t feel like anything spectacular or different from how it felt when we left Vancouver four days before. I really believe we could’ve been right there playing in the finals if our intensity at practice had picked up earlier, if commitment hadn’t been such an issue at the start, and if certain decisions had been made with better judgement and clear reasoning… but what can ya do?
Meg was telling me how she told herself to go into this with no regrets and I realize I already had plenty, not just from the tourney but from the entire season in general. In the beginning I was so determined to prove my coach wrong… that I wasn’t just some ordinary player from a no name school, but I folded, accepted I couldn’t offer what others had and let her know she was right. On the car ride home from the airport I realized that this was the exact same attitude I carried with me last year on the basketball team, when the seniors kept getting play time and I just warmed the bench with my butt. It’s definitely something I need to work on, but for now… whatever. The politics are over and I don’t need to work my ass off for someone who refuses to acknowledge any of it. I just wish I was strong enough to realize to put everything on the line for my team rather than begrudgingly so for someone that didn’t personally believe in me.
Regardless, I still had a blast and now know what I was doing with my time all summer long. I’ve made some pretty sweet friends, created wonderful memories, laughed ‘til my stomach hurt, gained experience, and worked hard for a common goal with some of the most amazing and passionate players I know. It being my first year on a team like this, I know this didn’t mean as much to me as it did to those who have been playing this game since the beginning of high school, and it’s heartbreaking for those who are now no longer able to return… but it really is only juniors. We all have so much more ahead of us, and even if we won’t get to win together as a team anymore there are endless battles for us to conquer individually. Real ultimate begins now.
At least we won the spirit award… lawwlz.